We are about to embark on our first trip since we lost our baby girl. I wasn't supposed to be able to go on this trip, I was supposed to have a new baby at home to nurse. I really have a whole new respect for all mothers that have lost a baby, and by baby I mean 0-100! We are all babies to someone and the loss is so huge! I really didn't know you could physically feel empty inside. My daughter was supposed to be here, being held by Evan, tickled by Aryn, snuggled by her mom and dad! We get to snuggle the older ones but oh to smell that new baby smell just one time. We miss you little angel! We love you everyday!