Instead of watching my child grow, smiling, laughing,rolling-over, sitting up, I am the one taking the small steps. I went back to work today. My first job since I lost her. Why did I decide nursing was for me? Kids are everywhere, so many well-baby visits. Is this the place for me? God gave me Andi, God gave me nursing, God gave me this job. I have to tell myself this, that is how I cope. I am learning to be the mommy of an angel. I am learning to cope yet remember her, grieve yet not wallow in sorrow. I am her mom, I am proud, I am surviving!